Some folks have been curious as to how I arrived at the name for my blog, “why Fatman?” they’ve asked, “You aren’t really fat anymore”. Well, in addition to the fact that it was available and kind of catchy, there is more…
First, I have been fat for most of my life. I have dealt with the name calling, the snickering, the not fitting in (figuratively and literally!). I have not been able to wear the “cool” clothes or shop in the “cool” stores. I’ve had trouble walking, running, climbing, jumping, playing sports, etc. I’ve spent a lot of time worrying about weight limits and size restrictions… hell, I couldn’t go to an amusement park, or sporting event without worrying whether or not I was going to fit into a ride, a seat, etc. I even quit flying several years ago, because I was too embarrassed to ask for the seat belt extender. And purchasing a second seat because my ass was too wide for one? My butt clenches just thinking about it now!
So yeah, there were lots of things that sucked about being fat. BUT, I never asked for anyone’s sympathy, or expected anyone to make accommodations for me because I was fat (part of my beef with the whole “fat acceptance” movement, but that’s another story for another day). I’ve always taken full responsibility for my weight and level of fitness. But what I am saying is, that “Fatman” thing… dammit I earned it! So let’s call it somewhat of an “irreverent badge of honor”.
Originally I gave consideration to names like “journey2anewme” or “running2anewme”, but those sounded too serious, and gave me too much credit. Nothing I have done is earth shattering, I’m not a hero… I’m still me, and I didn’t want to come across as someone who was trying to run away from their past. The person I used to be is still a big part of who I am today. I never want to forget where I came from. No, I don’t intend to go back there…so I call myself Fatman and laugh. And well, if you can’t laugh at yourself, or be just a tad irreverent sometimes… where’s the fun in that?
Laugh at yourself, but don’t ever aim your doubt at yourself. Be bold. When you embark for strange places, don’t leave any of yourself safely on shore. Have the nerve to go into unexplored territory.
So there ya go. I’m Fatman. Howdy!